Just a little funny

Glad I don’t have to go anywhere today! Plan to veg and hang out watching movies with the kiddos that are all piled up in this house! 

Y’all stay safe! 

Be blessed! 

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Day 40

Happy New Year!! 

I hope everyone has had a good Christmas and new year. Mine was..alright. I got to have my kiddo for all of Christmas for once. It was different. We put up a tree. He didn’t get up until almost 12. Lol and he only woke up then because I woke him up. My sister mine and brother in law came over for lunch and we had a great time! Lol I of course totally forgot to take pictures! Lol We watched the kiddo open his few 🎁 presents I could get him and talked and laughed and just enjoyed our time together. 

Normally we would have then gone to a family friends house but sadly one was still in the hospital after a very bad wreck he had been in earlier in the month. Thankfully he is doing much better now. He’s currently asleep in the chair next to me as I type. There are 4, yes 4 teenage boys in the next room having a blast with the fact that they have a snow day tomorrow and are out of school for a long weekend. Me…. I’m sitting here not able to sleep. Which is actually nothing new for me. We (me and the kiddo) figured if we had to be snowed in somewhere here is better than our house. Lol if we do get snow there are hills here. Hopefully I will have pictures to post of them beibg goofy kids they actually are. (They almost all look like grown men.) At this time I’m pretty sure they are asleep, since all I’m hearing now is the tv. But it’s been great listening to them mess around, joking and laughing and having fun hanging out together. 

My current situation. Yes I am watching NCIS on my laptop instead of the big screen.

I’m catching up to be current of the season. (The CBS app is AWESOME!) 

Anway, I haven’t made much progress with my right hand, but can almost lift my arm up completely straight up!  (That’s big for me!) And for the first time in FOREVER I came touch my thumb to my finger!! Not completely but close! 

Hurts like hell! But I can do it!!

I’ve had a lot on my mind these days, but haven’t been ready to put them all into words. Hopefully this will change soon and I will have more to come.  

Anyway, 

Love and prayers and blessings! 

All of us cramped into the back of Daddy’s truck when they came to see us after Thanksgiving!

Me trying to take a picture of us! Lol

Daddy mine and Santa 🎅

Me and child of mine that ain’t mine at Wally world on Tuesday night! (Before all the bad incoming weather.)

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Dear Momma, 

As of tomorrow night, you’ve been gone 15years. I miss you more than I have the words to explain. Your grandson is AMAZING! I pray every day to be even half the mom to him that you were to me. Ya kbow growning up I always wanted to be a mom and always thought I would have you here to go through this with. God needed you more than we did I guess. I hate that your grandson didn’t get to know you in person. He does know you from pictures and memories shared. You’d be proud of our handsome boy…I guess his daddy and I have done pretty good with him so far. He is a great kid. I see you in him sometimes and it takes my breath away. I wish you were here to tell you how sorry I am for all the crap I put you through growing up. I understand now more than ever how hard it must have been. I wish you were here for me to hug and love on one more time…to hear you say I love you princess just once more. You would think that after 15 years it wouldn’t hurt this much but it does. Momma I don’t know how you did it…. You were amazing and would have been an even more amazing Meemaw. That’s what he calls you btw…just like you always wanted. He has grown up knowing that you were the most excited about him being born and that you loved him so very much from day 1. There are days when all I want to do is call you….to talking about everything going on and life and how to deal with it. There are good days and bad but I still miss you every day and still wish you were here.

I picture you in Heaven, singing in the chior. I hope that even though you are gone, you get to look down and see our boy! I hope that you know that I see things clearer now and that I know when and where I screwed up and that I’m sorry. Know that I’m trying to raise my son the way you raised me and that I’m greatful for God giving you to me as my momma. 

I love you still! Missing you always!!

Day 38….or close enough..

So….for those of y’all that don’t know….it’s been a REALLY big day in Alabama today! (Besides being Shop Small Saturday) .

Iron Bowl Day!! 

Had fun watching the game!!

On the off chance y’all didn’t already know who I liked)

It was fun watching the game with mostly Auburn fans.


Slow start, but they got it better in the end! Hope y’all enjoyed y’all’s day!! I did! 

Now I am going to try to stay awake til like 8pm, cause I’m tired! Lol..

Love and prayers and blessings! 


P.S. I even managed to buy a very few small Christmas presents!  

Day 37

I was up late again last night waiting to see the new Gilmore Girls. 5 minutes til it’s released in my area and bam…I’m falling to sleep….so I woke up and decided to eat something as I’m everything up.

No bake chocolate eclaire (sp?)

Judge all you want…yes I ate dessert for breakfast! Then decided it wasn’t enough and I was STILL hungry! Lol so I decided to eat left overs! With my coffee! 

Gilmore Girls, leftovers, and coffee for breakfast! (Sorry just realized you can’t really see the screen)


Yes…I had already eatten most of it by the time Netflix worked. Lol

Now I’m not going to go into details….because as much as spoilers don’t bother me they do bother others. Besides I’m still having mixed emotions about some of it…

Loved it!! But still….

Anyway. . . anyone who wants to talk about it I shouldbe good to talk about it soon! Lol 

Gotta say, you jump, I jump Jack is one of my favorites from the original series. And love the LDB! 

Anyway~~

Love and prayers and blessings, 

Day 36

As y’all know I’ve been going through a lot lately. Still am. But y’all,  today has been so amazing. I’ve been reminded today just how loved my son and I am loved. 

I didn’t get a picture with my sister mine today, but we did get to have a little family Thanksgiving before brother mine had to go to work. It was great. And I managed to get a 15lb turkey safeky in the oven all by myself…one handed! I was so excited!! 

Turned out great!! 

Then we came to my “other family’s ” house! It was so wonderful!  Just being with these people! 

Back porch talking

Love these boys! Even if they don’t always smile!

Never to big to sit in momma’s lap!

Blessed to have Uncle Roger still with us!

Our very own Santa lol aka Pop!

Even the boys joined in our talking!

Gotta have pie!!

Three of my favorites!

Even managed to get a picture with big D

No matter what’s going on in your life take the time to enjoy your loved ones…even if you don’t share all the same blood! 

Now I’m trying to patiently waiting for the new Gilmore Girls!! 

Love and prayers and blessings! 

Day…..34?!?

There comes a point in some people’s lives where there they hit a wall…a blocked path of their life. I know this first hand….am deaki g with it in my life now. I have recently turned 36 and I feel more lost in my life now than I did when I was a lost teenager who thought she knew everything and didn’t. Due to an unforeseen injury my life that I had made for myself and my son has been torn up…changed in a way I never thought of. I am more dependent on people now than I ever thought I’d have to be again…and it’s messing with my sense of who I am and where my future is going. It’s hard. So very hard to be lost in the world and not being able to see the future. It’s scary. Really scary. Not going to lie….lol it’s too hard or maybe I’m too lazy to lie. I am blessed with a father who is going out of his way to help us..simply because we are his and he loves us. It’s still a struggle and I’m still fighting…every day. Eventually I will see the plan…see where and how to make it work again. Til then….never give up.



Don’t forget to tell those who are standing with you Thank you!!

Thank you Daddy&Mom, CJ, LeaAnn&Josh, Katina&Daniel, Jacob, Paula&Richard, Roger, and Randy. 

Love and blessings and prayers!! 

Day 33~~

The last 10 days have been ….. Well, very rough…physically and emotionally. Very very rough. I don’t plan to say much now because I’m not wanting to throw all my messed up ness at y’all.  I honestly haven’t posted because emotionally I’ve been a mess. Dealing with everything is hard and basicly just wanted to say I’m still here. I am learning to deal with this and learning there can and will be set backs to deal with. Just keep praying. 

One breath, one day, one step at a time. 

PS. Tell those you love that you love them…..for one day they won’t be here for you to tell.  

Momma, I miss you so much right now…but I’m still here and still fighting.